‘Are you free?’ you ask and
all I can think is ‘Yes, with you I am’. You look at me
confused, because you never saw a cage preventing me to fly. There is
no cage, no bars nor any clipping of my wings. There is
no one holding me back, tying me down, keeping me silent.
yet I did not feel free.
I could not speak my mind without defending it. Not
laugh or cry or be excited,
without explaining it.
everywhere I went I
had to translate to speak to others and
to understand what they had spoken to me.
There was no cage,
There was no rope,
There was never any locked door,
but also, there was never any state
in the moment.
Then you came,
held up your hand,
introduced freedom to me.
Before I spoke a single word,
explained a single feeling,
offered any private knowledge,
I knew that I was loved,
cared for and accepted.
With you there
was no hunt for status, no image to uphold.
There was not good or bad, no perfect nor evil.
There was no second guessing, no trying to impress.
There was no thing that I could say or do,
that would ever change what you already knew.
I see you
You see me